When home doesn't feel like home

Annyeong~

Just finished the exams yesterday, hope I can get good result. I'm all by myself in my house now, all my house mates have gone back to their hometown. I actually enjoy the time alone, but I'm not eating well. I didn't go out for lunch or dinner and there are nothing much on my food supply in my house. Quite hungry now but I don't like eating alone =(

Anyway, I was supposed to go back to my mom's house tomorrow since I've already bought bus tickets along with my big sis but she cancelled the trip since my mom is coming here instead. She already sold the tickets to other people.

The thing is that I have to stay all by myself for a few more days until they come here, that would mean I'm not going to eat well during those days.  Not that I have much money in my wallet anyway. I texted my dad to bank in some spending money twice two days ago and he never replied back.

I don't know what his problem is, why isn't he replying my text? I don't like it and I'm running out of money. Damn it! I really can't wait to work and have my own money. I don't want to depend any longer on other people. It hurts when they let you down. Even your own family ='(

I just received a text from my youngest sister she said my mom's not sure when they will be coming here since she don't wanna stuck in traffic because Chinese New Year is around the corner. How long do I have to be alone here?

At time like this I really wish I'm somewhere really far. What's the point of staying near yet the distance is even further than staying somewhere across the world? It's hard when you don't have someone to lean on at time like this. My only company is my precious PC to kill the time. My life is so pathetic.

I don't know why I no longer feel the excitement to go home like my friends do. Even when I'm at my mom's house, I don't feel at home. It's weird because that's where my family is. Whenever I go back home, I can't wait to go back to my university. Seriously, I feel more at home here than my mom's house.

That's why when I own my own place, I don't really bother about getting a luxurious or a huge house, I just wanna have a house that I will look forward to return to after a long and hard day at work. If I get married and have my own family, then I wanna build a house that all of us will look forward to return to always.

I think having my own house is much more important than having a car. I'd be lying if I say I don't wanna buy a car, but I think having my own place is my priority. Then, only other things come.

Of course I have my own dream house. The best house I've seen so far would be the house they use for the drama "FULL HOUSE." Really, that house is the best. The neighbourhood, the design and the location are just perfect! But then, houses like that would cost millions, so I can only fantasize of living in that kind of house with Jaejoong. 

For reality, I prefer to live in an apartment. It may be small but it doesn't have those annoying gates that I have to open and close every day. I hate gates! And apartment has more privacy and people don't usually knock on your door to ask for donour or sell their products.

Here are some pictures of my dream house. *not mine* Credit to owner.

Now, all I need is to find Jaejoong and marry him and have our own cute babies! keke

Aside from these rantings, I'm watching the 2006 drama Dating on Earth. Seriously, I feel so jealous watching it and I even wish I was the lead actress though I have zero acting skills. keke, now that I feel better after my ranting, I'm going to get high talking about the Dong Bang boys. They looked so young in this drama.

The drama was quite slow-paced and the plot is so common, and the most annoying part is that the lead female character that is married to Micky Yoochun but at the same time, I feel like she's hitting on MY Jaejoong. ;p Though she's a teacher, but the way she speaks to her students are like "Yah, Kim Jaejoong ah...bla...bla..bla..." Even if it's a drama, the script should be realistic for the drama to be fantastic fantastic fantastic, elastic elastic elastic elastic. *slap myself for temporary diversion to SHINee* I mean is that a way for a teacher to speak to her students? Pleh...even I can write better.

And worse, the drama is so heavily edited and most of the scenes with Yunho, Changmin and Junsu were cut out! I mean Dong Bang Shin Gi is the soul of the drama and three of them get edited out! It really affects the drama in a very bad way. Luckily the soulmates are the lead actors, so I continued to watch the drama, like most of us do. The edited gang (Yunho, Changmin and Junsu) was so funny and they made the story much more lively and enjoyable. I think the edited part is much better than the drama itself. Junsu was exceptionally funny with his innocence and straight-fowardness that match his level of IQ as a dolphin. Yunho played a hot  nerd who was aimed by his perverted health teacher. Changmin played another close friend of Yoochun and he was always with Junsu and the only one can tolerate Junsu's level of IQ. keke

Here's the link of the drama if you want to watch. But beware, there are scenes that will make you feel like you wanna stab the lead actress ;p Just follow the next video for the rest of the parts.

And here's the more interesting parts that were edited out. Again, I do not own any of these videos.

What I really don't get was how come the gangsters have the heart to beat Jaejoong when he was looking at them with those mesmerizing eyes? (*-*)

Till then, 

I'll be back.